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The Sun
02:38
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I woke up this morning with clouds in my head.
But they all rolled away when I got out of bed.
And the sun shone on my face
With the warmth of your embrace
When I thought of you.
We don’t fit perfect and sometimes the weather’s rough.
But we have enough good days to make it up.
And the sun shines on my face
With the warmth of your embrace
When I think of you
Sometimes I wonder
Where I would have been
If I’d never met you
Or your seasons
I would have stayed winter
Would have never known spring
Would have never seen summer
Or been able to fall
For you.
We got so lucky that we didn’t miss the boat.
So even when it rocks I am full of hope.
And the sun shines on my face
With the warmth of your embrace
When I think of you
Oh the sun shines on my face
With the warmth of your embrace
When I think of you.
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2. |
The Truth
03:06
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The day you left town was the day I came to my senses.
I unfogged the lenses I’d been wearing for so long and I saw that I was wrong.
I found the truth then. I found it on the mend.
I found the truth then. I found it in the end.
With a knife and scissors, with a flame and thorns
You gave me cause to rejoice but I began to mourn.
You undid the web that I’d been weaving for so long,
Laid the loose ends at my feet, then you were gone.
And I lay – I lay unravelled as the wind wound round.
I breathed in the answer with a silent sound.
I found the truth then. I found it on the mend.
I found the truth then. I found it in the end.
There I found a tapestry that changed with the light, but never changed its strings.
Only the boundaries of my vision could obscure all these things.
I found the truth then. I found it on the mend.
I found the truth then. I found it in the end.
The day you left town was the day I came to my senses.
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3. |
Monster
04:01
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I was going to call you, but then I heard the news.
So I thought that I would have to wait – I never knew
What the words I never said… what they would do
Mmmm
I will never be the woman that you want
But sometimes I like to dream and hope I don’t get caught.
My heart, it whispers what my lips cannot.
Mmmm
You can think of me as a woman behind a veil
If you look hard enough, you can see every detail
of the mmm Monster
I am a mmm Monster
Mmmm
Some have said silence would be the death of me.
So I speak metaphorically when it comes to history.
It’s the only way that I can honestly.
Mmmm
You can think of me as a woman behind a veil
If you look hard enough, you can see every detail
of the mmm Monster
I am a mmm Monster
Mmmm
You would destroy everything I am
Without taking the time to understand
That I need you to hold my hand.
Mmmm
You can think of me as a woman behind a veil
If you look hard enough, you can see every detail
of the mmm Monster
You can think of me as a woman behind a veil
If you look hard enough, you can see every detail
I will not forever lock these secrets inside of me
I do not want to remain a mystery
Or a mmm Monster
I’m not a mmm Monster
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4. |
Jessica
04:24
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I have written so many letters, my hands bled
I am tired of worshiping paths that your feet tread
You have shut the door tightly, locked it and swallowed the key
And even though I am five thousand miles away I can see bridges burning…
It was ten years ago exactly today
That you took three years of hard work and just through them away
Although I really can’t say that I’m constantly suffering
Now and then I can feel the knife deep in my back, when it’s twisting…
Jessica
You took the side of the bad guy – got taken in by the evil grin of the vampire
Never asked me why. You never called to say good bye.
You don’t answer me when I write, don’t even try
You took the wrong side
There have been too many cases for me to count
Where you left me feeling down and out
Do you remember the day that we found the fork in the road
And you left me standing alone in the freezing cold?
Jessica
You took the side of the bad guy – got taken in by the evil grin of the vampire
Never asked me why. You never called to say good bye.
You don’t answer me when I write, don’t even try
You took the wrong side
Now I’m on the other side of the ocean
Only vaguely aware of the plans set in motion
No matter the number of wires laid
You won’t call back because you don’t feel I’ve paid.
You have followed me this far even though you never left home
You keep on trying to prove to me how much you’ve grown
But now I’m finally fed up, my patience is wearing thin
No matter what you think you have no idea who I am…
Jessica
You took the side of the bad guy – got taken in by the evil grin of the vampire
Never asked me why. You never called to say good bye.
You don’t answer me when I write, don’t even try
You took the wrong side
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5. |
Closer than Before
03:48
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I can look back. I can see the tears on my face. I can feel your hand slip away. I can feel the heaviness. I can see my family. I can see the look in your eyes.
I can feel the hunger, I can smell the beer. I can taste the salt, I can smell the cigarettes. I can hear them mispronounce my name and I see the dust in the air.
And I am closer than before.
I could hear the words – how did I understand? I gave away my bags to the car with the man. We couldn’t find my place, drove around forever. I hadn’t slept in days.
I can hear the phone ring from downstairs but I can’t answer it. I just sit outside and watch the sunset and the ringing stops.
Ring again. Ring again.
I will the phone and it rings again, cold plastic to my ear. But it’s not the voice I wanted
But I am closer than before
To reaching the end
Oh, God, my feet are sore
From climbing this mountain
I can feel the coolness of the glass that’s pressed against my finger tips – closed fists.
I can see the clouds in whisps as Boston falls away – lights becoming distant.
I can feel the tears – they’re rising now in my eyes to meet my fears
Try to wipe away before someone sees me crying – this fear of heights –
Boston isn’t bright enough
But I am closer than before
To reaching the end
Oh, God, my feet are sore
From climbing this mountain
I can feel the heat, I can see the town. I can feel the sweat on my back and it’s running down as I climb the mountain. I can feel them crawl. I can see the light on their faces as the night falls.
I can hear the clock tick, I can see the happiness. I tap my foot. I’m alone at night walking up the path, right. I should have brought a flashlight.
I should have brought a flashlight.
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Whispers
03:32
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Devil running up a stairway. I could only see his back.
But that wasn’t gonna stop me from wanting something bad.
Every atom in my body screamed to run away.
But instead I heeded whispers and took a chance – a chance I never had to take.
I think I was in a hurry, taking two steps at a time
But I had no need to worry because he stopped and turned and drank me like wine.
Every atom in my body screamed to run away.
But instead I heeded whispers and took a chance – a chance I never had to take.
It was the perfect excuse to get dirty.
It was the ideal plan to get my way.
But what I failed to see is we’re all dirty.
And all I got was in my way.
I guess what makes survivors out is they look back and learn.
Not chasing and retracing their own steps.
The thing that bound me for so long was fear of getting burned
By my angels, by my demons, by myself.
Every atom in my body screamed to run away.
But instead I stand my ground – I heed no whispers.
It’s a chance I’m going to have to take.
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7. |
Fool vs. Wiseman
03:13
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You say all the right words and the knowledge behind them
is as solid as that oak there in the ground.
You know I am naïve and I run on intuition
let the feelings in my stomach make their rounds.
Oh hey – I don’t listen to wise men
Oh nay – nor the treasures that they say
I’m a fool – and a fool I will remain.
I am a fool to love you anyway.
You warned me but I love you anyway.
When our story plays out according to your calculations
You’ll need no re-calibration of your heart.
But I’ll be sweetly drowning in the tears of revelation
Knowing you offered me salvation from the start.
Oh hey – I don’t listen to wise men
Oh nay – nor the treasures that they say
I’m a fool – and a fool I will remain.
I am a fool to love you anyway.
You warned me but I love you anyway.
Ohhh….
Even the wisest of men can be wrong
I’m crossing my fingers that you made a mistake.
Despite all my knowledge my feelings stay strong
All that’s left for me to do is wait…
Oh hey – I don’t listen to wise men
Oh nay – nor the treasures that they say
I’m a fool – and a fool I will remain.
I am a fool to love you anyway.
Oh hey – I don’t listen to wise men
Oh nay – I hope they’ll be wrong someday
I’m a fool – and a fool I will remain.
I am a fool to love you anyway.
You warned me but I love you anyway.
It’s foolish but I love you anyway.
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8. |
Helpless
03:50
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You are not alone. I gave my heart to you years ago.
It was an even trade.
Happened on the same day you gave your heart away to me.
Therefore when your heart is breaking I am the one with knives in my chest.
And when your nightmares wake you I am the one who finds no rest.
I can watch your teardrops fall.
I can catch them if I’m fast enough.
But I can’t make them stop.
I have tried to reach you in everyway – In every way.
And I have failed to reach you in any way – in any way.
You are in so much pain. I did not inflict it, I cannot take it away.
I am helpless.
There are nights where all I can do is remain by your side –
Fighting for your smile.
There are days when I think it comes back for a while.
But when your hopes are falling I am the one who’s down.
And when you drink I am the one who drowns.
I can chase after you.
I can catch you if I’m fast enough.
But I can’t make you stop.
I have tried to reach you in everyway – In every way.
And I have failed to reach you in any way – in any way.
You are in so much pain. I did not inflict it, I cannot take it away.
I am helpless.
These open arms could be your wings. I could shield you from those things.
I will wait with you until the quiet comes, and when it does, we’ll run.
I have tried to reach you in everyway – In every way.
And I have failed to reach you in any way – in any way.
You are in so much pain. I did not inflict it, I cannot take it away.
I am helpless.
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Heavy
03:02
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The night sneaks in with twilight grace, darkening with weight
That smothers each and every gentle breath
I suffocate at my window as I watch my doubts gather below,
Figures dancing delicately in the lamp light
My head, so heavy
I need to lay my worries down
They twirl and spin so easily and if watching them could set me free
Then maybe I could finally breathe
If so I would inhale the stars, Venus mint and cinnamon Mars;
I would hold them in my breast then sing them back to the heavens
My head, so heavy
I need to lay my worries down
This sleeplessness is tedious – my tired mind cries for dreams.
When weariness is infinite the night offers no peace.
My head, so heavy
I need to lay my worries down
The sun returns with airy light and shoos away the stubborn night
She sighs and smiles when she sees that I’m still standing
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10. |
Vacuum
04:36
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Driving home alone, I knew this day would come
Even though I hoped and prayed reality would fade away
So now you’re high above the clouds, you’re in my head
You’re in my arms, in my bed
The lights from the towers guide me home
These man-made constellations
Make for easier navigation
As I go on alone
There’s a ringing in my ears from the silence that you left behind
I’m living in a vacuum now, no atmosphere and inside out
Plaster walls and metal frames cannot hold me in the same way
That your arms did yesterday
The empty roads will lead me home
These asphalt pathways make for lonely highways
As I go on alone
Your image burned electronically, my structural integrity
Pain in ones and zeroes and my misguided heroes
The satellite delay echoing off of the bay
Flickering electricity as I try to focus on the screen
Many faces peer down from this steel scaffolding
Their voices have been digitized
The lights are bright, I squint my eyes
So I can find you
My throat grows tight
The steady wind will drive me home
Crying through constructed canyons
Farewell song
To a lost loved one
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Stephanie Forryan
Her face may be unfamiliar, but there’s a good chance you’ve already heard Stephanie Forryan’s voice and music – on world
tour with Chris Norman, in successful US television shows like “Lie to Me”, or on releases alongside famous artists.
The native New Englander followed music to Europe and has been traveling the world performing, writing, and recording ever since.
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