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The Living Album Project

by Stephanie Forryan

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1.
I got no letter. And I got no phone call. But I know that you are gone. You won’t come ‘round no more. I know you. I pour you a cup of tea Though I know it will grow cold So I take it to me Before the warmth can flee. I got no letter. And I got no phone call. But I know that you are gone. You won’t come ‘round no more. I know you. I pour you a glass of wine Though I know it will remain And withstand the test of time ‘Til I forget your name
2.
I used to watch the news Late at night, face glowing blue As if I couldn’t find air Drowning in my comfy arm chair So I pulled the plug With one small tug And I walked through the city at night To find forgotten beauty in the light Of the stars in the sky (again) Pavement, concrete, cobblestone Heading to the park, I leave the road I find I’m not alone I hear footsteps – a hundred more souls We all left the grid Found the stars where they hid And we walk through the city at night To find all the beauty in the light Of the stars in the sky (again) Meteor showers in a field Midnight meeting with fireflies for candle light Bare feet tickled by the grass Run so fast, feel your heart pounding
3.
I wear you like a straight jacket. I. I. I. I. I wear you like a bullet-proof vest. I. I. I. I. I wear you like the devil’s helmet. I. I. I. I. I wear you like my best defense. I. I. I. I. Everything’s about me here And I wonder why I wonder why we fight I hold you like a loaded gun. I. I. I. I. I hold you like a woman on the run. I. I. I. I. I hold you like the hand of a loved one. I. I. I. I. I hold you like a prodigal son. I. I. I. I. Everything’s about me here And I wonder why I wonder why we fight I love you like paint on a canvas. I do. I love you like a glutton loves excess. I. I. I do. I love you like the distance between us. I. I. I. I. I love you like a bullet on the express. I. I. I. I. Everything’s about me here And I wonder why I wonder why we fight
4.
"Wish You" Some will wish you flowers Some will wish you gardens Some will wish you Eden I wish you love. Some will wish you silver Some will wish you gold Some will wish you diamonds I wish you love From words in the chapel to sweet whispers in the dark Lock, stock, and barrel love when you're well-to-do, when you're down-and-out. You can handle anything that swings your way if you've got love. Some will wish you family. Some will wish you friends. Some will wish you children. I wish you love. //CH// So you want to be a rich man Then you've gotta be ambitious You've gotta build the bridges That lead to all the riches And the richest man has love. Some will wish you the best Some will wish you better Some will wish you your life handed to you on a silver platter. Some will wish you beauty Some will wish you fame Some will wish you success I wish you love.
5.
How could you be so cold? How could you just shut down like that? I open the doors you shut But even then you turn your back. First you’re on and then you’re off Shut me down then wanna talk – no in between Should I stay or should I go? Just say the word, I wanna know. Just tell me. Don’t be such a machine. I remember the times When everything good between us multiplied. But now everything’s changed And I think that I feel the great divide. Things aren’t always black and white We can talk, no need to fight – there’s space between. Or have you already done the math? What you add and I subtract – what does it mean? You’re such a machine. Oh no, not again. This human heart can’t match your engine. You’re such a machine. Don’t be such a machine.
6.
Mmm hmm. No way. Uh uh. No, not today. I’ve seen that look before. I don’t wanna see that look no more. I’m getting tired of your overcast face blowing on in and clouding up the place. Mmm hmm. No way. Uh uh. No, not today. So I’ll just pack my things and go – Fill my little brown box and hit the road. I had no idea how good it’d feel to finally let on loose and play it real. Mmm hmm. No way. Uh uh. No, not today. People say I should be content to sit here and whine But I tried, and I ain’t happy wasting all my time You know they say time is money, and I think I let enough of my Riches slip through my fingers. So I’m gonna call their bluff. I’ve seen that look before. But I aint gonna see that look no more. I traded in that overcast face to follow my own lead onto brighter days.
7.
Follow the water wherever it leads, then you'll find the sea. And if you insist on following me, I know what will be. Oh, how I would love to love you more like I should. But no, the flood won't come just because I call, though I wish it would. The tides have a rhythm that we can't control, they just come and go. Washing up treasures and stealing the land, our footprints in the sand. Oh, how I would love to love you more like I should. But no, the flood won't come just because I call, though I wish it would. I wish: I could love you with the power of the water Trawl for the heart I don't have Drown the doubt I do Find safe harbor for you The salt on our cheeks is like brine on the beach, soaking the air we breathe. Leaving us thirsty with nothing to drink, compelling us to leave. Oh, how I would love to love you more like I should. But no, the flood won't come just because I call, though I wish it would.
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Just A Road Today I walked the road we walked a hundred times. A road is just a road is just a road. I had to hold my own hand so I wouldn’t cry. A road is just a road is just a road. As I remembered all my hopes, my breath caught in my throat But a road is just a road is just a road. I got to walk with you for a while It wasn’t long enough, that mile. But the sun still burns So I have to learn That a road is just a road is just a road. Healing is a painful path gone step by step. A road is just a road is just a road. The rhythm lulls me as I go if I let it A road is just a road is just a road. I pull my boots on every day because that’s the only way And a road is just a road is just a road. I got to walk with you for a while It wasn’t long enough, that mile. But the sun still burns So I have to learn That a road is just a road is just a road. Now there are flowers growing in the ground beside the lane. A road is just a road is just a road. I try to focus on their beauty, not the change A road is just a road is just a road. ‘Cause everything will start anew and we’re all just passing through On this road. It’s just a road, it’s just a road. Oh this road is just a road, it’s just a road.
10.
The horizon can be a funny thing It inspires me to rise up, take wing And one of these days I might just fly away if things around here don’t change. ‘Cause I know, I haven’t been happy in a while But I know I used to think of you and smile… Give me a reason to feel good. Give me a reason. Hope and pray. Knock on wood That your reason is good enough to make me stay here. You just keep buying yourself those black gold rings Just don’t wonder why your wallet’s suffering. You know, nothing lasts forever, not even your empire Not even your hopes and dreams. ‘Cause I know you haven’t told the truth in a while. And I’ve become suspicious of your smile… Give me a reason to feel good. Give me a reason. Hope and pray. Knock on wood That your reason is good enough to make me stay here. Give me a reason to feel good. Give me a reason. Hope and pray. Knock on wood That your reason is good enough to make me stay here.
11.
I woke up this morning with clouds in my head. But they all rolled away when I got out of bed. And the sun shone on my face With the warmth of your embrace When I thought of you. We don’t fit perfect and sometimes the weather’s rough. But we have enough good days to make it up. And the sun shines on my face With the warmth of your embrace When I think of you Sometimes I wonder Where I would have been If I’d never met you Or your seasons I would have stayed winter Would have never known spring Would have never seen summer Or been able to fall For you. We got so lucky that we didn’t miss the boat. So even when it rocks I am full of hope. And the sun shines on my face With the warmth of your embrace When I think of you Oh the sun shines on my face With the warmth of your embrace When I think of you.
12.
I have heard that all is fair in love and war Both can leave you broken, bruised, and sore I have heard that hope is just a whore And desire is a distant shore I have seen the longing in your lovely eyes Seen your lips curl around sweet lies As you promise me even the sky Staying here would be unwise Cupid's got his bow at the ready Cupid's got his bow at the ready Cupid's got his bow at the ready and his aim's on me But I have got my shield held high You're weaving words that cast a spell around my heart But your deeds belie a different art And I now myself well enough to start Running, running oh so far Until I finally reach a solitary peak Far from anyone who could make me weak I didn't leave a trail for you to seek I'll strike you from my memory Cupid's got his bow at the ready Cupid's got his bow at the ready Cupid's got his bow at the ready and his aim's on me But I have got my shield held high Hear the arrows fly by Whisper like a lover's sigh Until they meet my shield: clang, bang, you are denied My heart is safe and victory is mine Cupid's got his bow at the ready Cupid's got his bow at the ready Cupid's got his bow at the ready and his aim's on me But I have got my shield held high
13.
You say all the right words and the knowledge behind them is as solid as that oak there in the ground. You know I am naïve and I run on intuition let the feelings in my stomach make their rounds. Oh hey – I don’t listen to wise men Oh nay – nor the treasures that they say I’m a fool – and a fool I will remain. I am a fool to love you anyway. You warned me but I love you anyway. When our story plays out according to your calculations You’ll need no re-calibration of your heart. But I’ll be sweetly drowning in the tears of revelation Knowing you offered me salvation from the start. Oh hey – I don’t listen to wise men Oh nay – nor the treasures that they say I’m a fool – and a fool I will remain. I am a fool to love you anyway. You warned me but I love you anyway.   Ohhh…. Even the wisest of men can be wrong I’m crossing my fingers that you made a mistake. Despite all my knowledge my feelings stay strong All that’s left for me to do is wait… Oh hey – I don’t listen to wise men Oh nay – nor the treasures that they say I’m a fool – and a fool I will remain. I am a fool to love you anyway. Oh hey – I don’t listen to wise men Oh nay – I hope they’ll be wrong someday I’m a fool – and a fool I will remain. I am a fool to love you anyway. You warned me but I love you anyway. It’s foolish but I love you anyway.
14.
I was going to call you, but then I heard the news. So I thought that I would have to wait – I never knew What the words I never said… what they would do Mmmm I will never be the woman that you want But sometimes I like to dream and hope I don’t get caught. My heart, it whispers what my lips cannot. Mmmm You can think of me as a woman behind a veil If you look hard enough, you can see every detail of the mmm Monster I am a mmm Monster Mmmm Some have said silence would be the death of me. So I speak metaphorically when it comes to history. It’s the only way that I can honestly. Mmmm You can think of me as a woman behind a veil If you look hard enough, you can see every detail of the mmm Monster I am a mmm Monster Mmmm You would destroy everything I am, Without taking the time to understand That I need you to hold my hand. Mmmm You can think of me as a woman behind a veil If you look hard enough, you can see every detail of the mmm Monster You can think of me as a woman behind a veil If you look hard enough, you can see every detail I will not forever lock these secrets inside of me I do not want to remain a mystery Or a mmm Monster I’m not a mmm Monster
15.
You're bad news. You're a bad penny. They say bad habits die hard, and you've got plenty. If one bad apple spoils the bunch then I'd better take the plunge. A bad wind's blowing so I'll beat you to the punch. The biggest turnoff in the world is somebody who don't want me. And I can see your love is growing cold. So boy don't let me slow you down And when you go don't turn around 'Cause I'll be gone, I'll be gone, I'll be gone. So goodbye. Good riddance. Good thing I dodged the bullet that you are and kept living. 'Cause you're a good-time Charlie But you sure ain't no good Joe. Now I've got the goods on you and you can go. The biggest turnoff in the world is somebody who don't want me. And I can see your love is growing cold. So boy don't let me slow you down And when you go don't turn around 'Cause I'll be gone, I'll be gone, I'll be gone.
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Bad Hair Day 00:55
Now and then I feel bold. Here and there I might get cold. But most occasions that I wear a hat I'm Just having a bad hair day. My mane is doing things its own way. So I celebrate my millinery possibilities with finery in the form of a pretty headpiece. The reality is that it's all just frilly frippery. But my mop is under cover Every day a different color So I think "why should I suffer from my hairstyle blunders" When I can just wear a hat? Thanks for the hand-knit headgear, mom!
17.
Puzzle Piece 00:47
Every day, every day, every day I felt there was something missing. Every day and every which way I looked. But then anyway, anyway, anyway, I found something surprising. This lovely discovery's gotten me hooked: That life's a puzzle. And you're a piece with the perfect pattern to fit me. You're my puzzle piece.
18.
Look 00:50
Look at those lashes Breaking my day apart The world's coming in flashes Making my own strobe art If I don't want to see you My eyes have a bodyguard But if I like how you're looking They open the door to my heart. Let's take a look-see I am peeking And my side-eye is on fleek. Lashes so long that I feel shady Feeling dangerous, like it's my heyday. Look.
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I dance with ghosts Specters of what could have been And the dreams That I did in When I was cold, cold, cold blooded. Now I'm just cold, cold, cold And alone But it feels like home. Now you dance with her The girl I could have been Had I said yes And taken your hand But I was cold, cold, cold-footed Now I'm just cold, cold, cold And alone But this is home. And if I start to feel the heat Begin to thaw out the deep freeze I feed the cold and starve the fever in me And your face fades behind the ice I see
20.
When I heard the weather report today I was afraid that you might blow away 'Cause storms can come in many forms With damage done to everyone And I did not prepare you for this. But then you called to say that everything was ok And I was free to go about my day But I can't think without you here So I'll daydream about you, dear Until my arms can hold you again.
21.
You are an ocean And I would love to dive into your depth, Gaze up to watch the sunlight Refract against your thousand facets Let you paint a picture of brilliance and shadows Tell me a story that I don't believe Then make me believe you But I will say nothing - I'll wait for this to pass Though I'm bursting - good things are like glass They break under the weight of every hope that I betray Then you'll turn away. You are the night sky I'd love to lose myself in your expanse Mesmerized by the starlight Illuminating your profoundness Let you reveal grandeur in quiet dark moments Awakening dreams that I can't believe So make me believe you But I will say nothing - I'll wait for this to pass Though I'm bursting - good things are like glass They break under the weight of every hope that I betray Then you'll turn away I've seen it. Whoever said that it's better to have loved and lost Must have never had to pay the cost of loss repeated. I'll just regard you through my telescope At a safe distance so that when you go I won't feel cheated. No I will say nothing - I'll wait for this to pass Though I love you - good things are like glass They break under the weight of every "I love you" that I say But I can't turn away-
22.
I wasn't looking for you I wasn't looking for anyone Just minding my own Satisfied all alone But I heard music drifting in Through my ears to raise my skin And when you spoke something broke within So I let my guard down And your sweet talk started to sting I'd already learned to burn my bridges, that an island I should be But I was a fool for your siren song And let you make your way to me When the ocean is so vast What are the chances you would land On these battered shores Just to shatter me more? I'm still so naive Though I tried not to believe The things that you said But I let myself be misled All the stories that you weaved Began to creep into my dreams I thought that you were what you seemed So I let my guard down And your sweet talk started to sting I'd already learned to burn my bridges, that an island I should be But I was a fool for your siren song And let you make your way to me When the ocean is so vast What are the chances you would land On these battered shores Just to shatter me more? You poured honey in my wounds Then passed me the wooden spoon I thought I would be immune after all this time But when your zeal began to fade And I realized I'd been played Oh how it burned, That fire I had to lay Now I'll be sure to burn my bridges, an island I will be No more fool for your siren song Won't let you make your way to me When the ocean is so vast What were the chances you would land On these battered shores Just to shatter me more?
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Berlin I've only known you since you were whole. But I've heard stories of your divided soul. I've seen remnants of your wall, Built with strength but doomed to fall. Is that why you feel like home? Teach me how to heal. Tell me what you know. How do you unbreak what's broken? When is it time to let go? Your city lights are like a beacon, Guiding me to your glow with your kindred soul And you feel like home. Berlin. You're poor but you take me in, No matter how long I've been gone Or how horribly I've sinned. You show me bridges that you've built With just the power of your will Is that why you give me hope? Teach me how to heal. Tell me what you know. How do you unbreak what's broken? When is it time to let go? Your city lights are like a beacon, Guiding me to your glow with your kindred soul. I can hold your history in my hand, watch your heartbreak turn to sand, making me believe that I can live again. If you can marry the old with the new, accept the past and still pull through, then maybe I can too. Teach me how to heal. Tell me what you know. How do you unbreak what's broken? When is it time to let go? Your city lights are like a beacon, Guiding me to your glow with your kindred soul. Teach me how to heal. Tell me what you know. How do you unbreak what's broken? When is it time to let go? Your city lights are like a beacon, Guiding me to your glow with your kindred soul And you feel like home. You feel like home.
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Eh. 03:56
It's just another lonely Friday night. I'm sitting home, holed up tight, Watching the daylight fade. Even the planet's throwing shade. I'm not gonna lie, I've been feeling down. I've got my reasons and they're sound. I know they'll go away. Just not today. Yeah, every little thing gets on my nerves. It feels like I'm breathing sandpaper. I wanna talk to you but I don't have the words. I just feel so eh. I didn't make my bed but I'm wearing a fancy dress. My hair looks great but my heart is in a mess. I'm doing all the things to control all the stuff I can. And learning to accept all the things outside the reach of these two hands. I catch myself staring out my window. I'd leave, but there's no place to go. Although they say there will be - I know, I know, I know. I just feel so eh. I think I got tired of feeling bad when I felt bad and bad when I felt good and mad when I slept in and fat when I ate food and sad when I couldn't connect and daft when I couldn't affect things like I coulda shoulda woulda back in the day because times have changed. All together we give our heads a shake and say, "times have changed." All together! All together, give our heads a shake and say, "times have changed." 'Cause times have changed. And it feels so eh. It all feels so eh. We all feel so eh. We all feel so eh.

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The Living Album Project is an album that GROWS! As I write the songs, I will add them to the album. The very first versions of the songs will be unpolished, but they will be updated as the song ideas mature. Once the writing process is finished, YOU get to help me choose the songs that make it onto the final official album.

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released April 1, 2017

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Stephanie Forryan

Her face may be unfamiliar, but there’s a good chance you’ve already heard Stephanie Forryan’s voice and music – on world tour with Chris Norman, in successful US television shows like “Lie to Me”, or on releases alongside famous artists.

The native New Englander followed music to Europe and has been traveling the world performing, writing, and recording ever since.
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